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Thursday, January 22, 2015


A poem I wrote last winter:

 The Cold Wind Blows

There's a cold wind blowing, and it chills me to the bone. My heart is empty, without you by my side.
 I feel the chill and there is no place else to hide, and the cold wind blows
I need you here, to warm me.
 I need your loving  arms around me. You could melt me with your smile.
But the cold wind blows, and there's no where to go,
No place that I can find you. I really need to find you....
 You told me that I was the sunlight in your eyes, You said you'd never be the one to make me cry.
 But now you're gone, and I feel that i might die, without you, without you....
and the cold wind blows, I am ice and I am stone. Thoughts of you they soothe my soul.
 Why am i so all alone? While a north wind...  chills me to the bone.
But the cold wind blows. And my heart is made of stone. I am naked and exposed. Left alone, and no one's home.  While the cold wind blows.

I hope my follower enjoy it. Oh yes, I was grieving and inspired. But happy days are here again, although I am never a fan of winter. Blessing to all! 

Monday, January 19, 2015

MLK Day 2014

Hi everyone. Again, it has been a while since I have been blogging. Due to illness this winter. i am back at it once again and have many new ideas and experiences to share with you.

Today is MLK Day and I have to say what an honorable man! He has been the inspiration and given us all hope for peace, love, fairness, and freedom from the awful racism that has been going on way to long in our country and the whole world! Dr. Martin Luther King was truly a man of God. I believe God used him to send a great message that will ring through all generations throughout all time. Freedom is for all men and women children and babies of all races, nationalities, all peoples.

God created us all in His image and has never had a respecter of persons. God tells us to love others as we love ourselves, plain and simple. We are the human race! Black, yellow, red, white,and any other color. Our colors all of them, make us unique and beautiful. Our hearts can be full of hate and ugliness, or love and peace.

I pray we live each day as brothers and sisters, as human beings who teach our children there is no difference in people because of the color of their skin. That love is the key to peace and no one is better than the other. We live in a dangerous world and we need to come together in love and  pull together to stop the evil of hate in the world.

Al people can choose to be good or bad no matter what color of  the skin. Once this reality is realized we can stop pointing fingers in division of races.

I have learned so much in the last few months about people. i am so thankful for the wonderful man that came into my life. Kilby, who is American, of African American decent. He and his family are wonderful people! What we have in common is a grandmother of his, was mostly Irish, and a grandfather mostly, or all, American Indian. These two nationalites are also my ancestors. And we have love! :) I love this beautiful handsome sweet man!

My meeting and enjoying his beautiful, wonderful family has opened my eyes to both the prejudices still alive in America, but how easily these are broken down when we get to know each other and give love a chance.

I hope this touches your heart today and you as well as I have, will let go of any prejudice you have learned from society and join in Martin Luther Kings great dream, and love your neighbor as yourself.  Heaven will be full of all the peoples here on earth. This makes me smile. Wouldn't it be nice to have some Heaven on earth also?

From my heart with love, Pamela

Monday, September 29, 2014

Short's General Store

The weather couldn't be better here in Missouri the last couple of weeks.  We are having a wonderful Indian summer.

I am being nostalgic today, so I thought I would tell you about my grandpa's General Store.  It was known as "Short's Store".  I loved going there as a kid it was there as long as I could remember.  The store was attached to my grandparents house by a breezeway, kind of a sitting area, like a small sun room.  My grandparents loved working in their store, and worked seven days a week.  Grandpa and grandma always dressed nice to go to work everyday. Grandpa wore dress pants a nice shirt and a western tie everyday.   Grandma always had a nice casual dress on.  They both worked real hard running their store, working the cash registers, the lunch meat counter, pumping gas, mostly grandpa did that, and grandpa had a butcher area in the back where he ground his own beef and cut up the meat for the store. They always had a couple of gals working there to.  The store had old wooden floors, counters with canned goods, breads, candy, penny candy, chips, toiletries, frozen food cases, clothing, cloth and sewing needs, shoes, fruits and vegetables, a big soda case, tobacco, and on holidays, they had all the extras.

Holidays were extra special in the store, Easter baskets full of goodies for sale, watermelons on the 4th of July and fireworks, Christmas, Halloween, and what was left over from those holidays the family would get to enjoy it.

Grandpa and grandma delivered groceries to people who couldn't come get them, they had running tabs for folks, credit back then.  The store was always a buzz with people coming and shopping, salesmen selling to grandma and grandpa, people hanging out and visiting while drinking a soda pop. There was marking the groceries as they came in, cleaning produce as it came in, cleaning every crook n cranny daily, along with cleaning that lunch meat area and the butcher area. They even sold kerosene.

Back in those days there weren't many grocery stores around, and the closest bigger town was about 5 miles away. people really used these general stores for their shopping.

When we were little one of my favorite memories of that store was when we would go visit. Grandpa would give us a little brown grocery bag and let us fill it up with penny candy. Now that was a treat!

My grandparents were so loving and fun! Beyond the grocery store, in their home, we had big family dinners, and grandma could really cook!  If they needed anything they would just walk over to the store and get it.  we had all the food, treats and really anything we wanted.  now back in those days that was a big deal because it was like being with rich grandparents.
Now , mind you they did well, but were not rich, but in our eyes they were.

The community were very fond of my grandparents and to this day people still remember Short's General Store.

Love you forever Grandma and Grandpa

Monday, September 22, 2014

Last Day of Summer 2014

Wow! It's the last day of summer?  Now where did the summer go? I bet you hear that a lot! probably you think it and say it too! Summer always goes by too fast for me.

When I was a kid it went by too fast, and then school started.  As a young adult I tried to get all the gusto I could out of summer, camping, fishing, swimming, barbeques, picnics, and with my kids of course.  At a later part of my younger adult life, I worked a lot so summer was work, work, go hang out with my sister in her pool, work some  more.

Then as a disabled adult, i just enjoy sitting in the sun, swimming, seeing the sun shine,hearing the birds sing, watching my grand children play, taking nice summer rides, barbeques, visiting with friends or family, and not freezing and hurting so bad in my joints.

But the last day of summer is like the last scene in a good love story.  Fall is pretty for maybe 5 days?  But for me the cooler weather, shorter days, and less sunshine,is reminder of getting older, like the fall in my life now. Don't get me wrong, I am very happy, and glad for each day. But my body gets these aches and pains in the fall, and I suppose that is why I dread the cooler weather, the end of summer coming and knowing it's new arrival will be several months away.

So I am going to enjoy today, and say good bye to my bestie, summer, until we meet again, Lord willing.  It has been a wonderful summer this year, meeting new friends, a new love, and settling in a new apartment with a marvelous swimming pool, that I enjoyed tremendously. The days were warm, but not extremely hot here, and  I have been feeling good!

I hope your summer was remarkable!  Here are some pictures  of my summer. Well IDK what happened, but some of them didn't post. lol  Oh well..... computers. :)   Pam

Foo Fighters - Summer's End

Saturday, September 20, 2014

Good Day To Blog

Another beautiful day in the neighbor hood. Warm weather, Relaxing Saturday, time spent with my sweet grand daughter and my daughter.  Nothing like a sweet 4 year old to brighten my day.  We watched the movie "The Croods" ate popcorn, and drank Koolaid.  A trip to the local park gave us some much needed fresh air.

Now at home, I am on my computer, after watching "Hell On Wheels" my favorite Saturday night program with my sweetie.  I am computing and watching TV at the same time.

In my late 50's brings an easy going life. Disabled, so the demands are minimum, I find enjoyment in simpler things more than I did when I was younger.

The world out there is becoming more dangerous each day. People killing one another, terrorists threats, disease and poverty are rampant. God helps us all!

A precious little boy named Super Sam passed away 2 days ago. He touched the lives of so many people with his courage, wisdom, love, and did I mention bravery? his smile lit up my heart and I did not know him personally, his life spoke volumes to young ad old. I am praying for his loved ones because the hole left in their lives will not be filled. But Super Sam is in the Heaven we all dream of, with no pain, running free and never to be sad or sick again.

I don't know much about blogging, but I love to write, and I hope you will join me here to be a part of this blog with your thoughts and friendship. Pam

Friday, September 19, 2014

A Beautiful Day

Today has been the most beautiful day in a long time. Perfect fall weather and sunshine.

  My heart is saddened though from the loss of a sweet little boy we all called Super Sam. He was an inspiration to thousands of people. He lost a long battle with cancer today.  He had such a sweet spirit, strength of heart, and gentleness through the fight..he touched so many lives and inspired us all! He is in the loving arms of Jesus now, running in such beauty we can not fathom in our mortal minds, and the pain is gone. His parents, sister, and so countless many will miss him and have to go through the long road of grief. But Sam made some of his decisions about living and dying with such brilliance and love, that his memory will have treasures of sweetness to bring smiles to those who loved him.

As fall is progressing, it always makes me think of the fall in our lives. I am there now, and daily i love to laugh and seek happiness above all else.  The most of my years are behind me, and sometimes it's hard to believe how fast they have passed.  Being happy is the best way we can spend our lives if possible. We won't always have lots of money or material things. But if we cherish our children, grand children, pets, sunshine, the comfort of our homes, simplicities that make us smile. We will find something to be happy about every day.

I am so thankful for Facebook, and it's enjoyment. I love my friends there, and what a wonderful way to keep up with family!  music to soothe the soul, groups with the same interests as I have. Laughter and funnies that can' be found anywhere else.  Thank you Facebook!

Friday evening and around the world we are all living different lives. Doing different things, in different cultures. So vastly apart by miles and space, but drawn together by love and good will.

Whoever reads my blog today. I pray you are blessed, and a blessing.  Pamela

Thursday, September 18, 2014

It Has Been a Long Time

Hi. Well I don't really know where to begin.... My husband and I finally went to Florida for 4 months. Blissful, happy, beautiful time there. His liver disease progressed, and on June 26, 2013 he lost the battle.  I shipped his body back to Missouri, packed our things and pulled a camper full of my belongings back to Mo.  I had a Superman Themed funeral for him, and he is placed in a Catholic cemetery in his home town.  I moved in with family to try and get my barings, while grieving my sweet Johnny, my rock.  My daughter, son in law and 4 yr old grand daughter were the closest to John and I, so we moved in a nice new home and lived together for almost a year.,  During the fall and winter I grieved hard and nearly lost my mind. I was very ill to top it all off.  I considered suicide, but my grand daughter kept me going.  Eventually we had to move in our own homes, we just did not see eye to eye any longer. I moved into a very small apartment.

I met a wonderful African American man who is also my age and disabled. He is so sweet, funny, helpful and loving.  We now live together and help each other. We are very happy! John did not want me to be alone, and begged me to move on if he was to pass away before I did. I know he is happy for me......

On the other hand, certain family members are against my decision. it is a shame that they can't get past the differences.  We are all human beings.  We love each other and love sees no color.

I thought I had lost my passwords to my blog...but I am so thankful I finally remembered them. 

God bless your life.  I will be blogging more often now, and I hope you will share with me.